Tuesday, November 17, 2009

So Now What???

So this whole time since the last day of my happiness, I've been just going to work or sitting at home. Nothing makes me want to do anything anymore. I try to draw. I try to eat. I try to keep myself busy. But no matter what I try, it's never finished. How am I suppose to prevent this from happening again? The only solution I have found was not to feel happiness again. The problem became the problem because I gave happiness a try again. I'm back to feeling the pain and I'm just tired. Most of the time I'm trying to stay strong, but it's all because of the meds.
I'm still going to try and get help. But thats all I can do right now. To admit that things happened and I can't handle it alone. At least I put my foot forward.......for now....

1 comment:

  1. Brother, whatever happened, I'm sorry to hear about this pain. It took me a long time to practice this, but a meditation that I turned into my life is to be like a mountain. Nothing can ruin it--not time, not storms. This is the same as my mind, nothing can ruin it--not good things, not bad things. It is free.