Thank You Everyone

So this past weekend, an art show titled "Urban Story Tellers" was going down at Inkies Tattoo Studio in Fremont Ca. Curated by Angelo Sison. All I can say was for his first ever curated show, I was blown away. He got alot of talented artists to participate and I was lucky enough to also be part of the show.
The show was on November 21st, Saturday. It started at 7pm. But it was more like it started at 6:55pm, because by 7pm the studio was pretty packed with alot of people. Alot of camera flashing. Alot of friends and families laughing. Also alot of eyes at all the art at the show.
This made me realize something. During this past few weeks, I've been really down. I was feeling like nothing really mattered anymore. And to be honest, I was going to end my art after this show.
But all the guys at Inkies, Angelo and all the people that came that night made me open my eyes. Made me realize that "I have to draw!!!" It was a great time meeting new people and being asked about my work and being told that they really enjoy looking at it. Pointing out their favorites and so on.
To everyone out there that came to the show. To all the guys at Inkies. To Angelo. All I can say is thank you so much. Thank you for the love, support and making me open my eyes once again. I admit, I was pretty waisted at the end. But man....did I have fun. Sushi anyone??? ....lol

Inkies Tattoo Glowing Bright!!!

Angelo...working hard.

SUSHI!!!! The best by Lester. If you need sushi catering, hit him up!!! (408)318-8702

This Piece was one of my favorite

So Now What???

So this whole time since the last day of my happiness, I've been just going to work or sitting at home. Nothing makes me want to do anything anymore. I try to draw. I try to eat. I try to keep myself busy. But no matter what I try, it's never finished. How am I suppose to prevent this from happening again? The only solution I have found was not to feel happiness again. The problem became the problem because I gave happiness a try again. I'm back to feeling the pain and I'm just tired. Most of the time I'm trying to stay strong, but it's all because of the meds.
I'm still going to try and get help. But thats all I can do right now. To admit that things happened and I can't handle it alone. At least I put my foot forward.......for now....

Life......

In times I ask myself why Life is always messing with me. Is it challenging me? Is it trying to make fun of me? Is it trying to see how long I can take his shit? ....................Well, All I can say is that "Life......you win"..........

I'm working on a piece right now that symbolizes all the hate, sadness, anger, and lastly the beauty in my "world". After this piece,I'm not sure what I will do.

Like I said...Life wins....

How........

It's been a while now since she left from my life. And as time goes by I have to say that it is still hard to get over it. My mind clouds up images in my head that I don't want to think of, and I don't know how to erase it. I try to keep myself busy like everyone tells me to be, but it's not helping at all. Been drinking mos tof the time to forget but thats just temporary. I can't be drinking 24/7. The only way I know to erase it will not happen because I promised her I won't do it again. So what am I suppose to do.
WHY IS MY MIND FUCKING WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!


.................someone please help me..............

Available now!!!

(I have no idea why my stamp is in blue in this image, but it's suppose to be red....wierd)

I am currently taking pre orders for my very first print sale. This first print will be limited to 10 and will never be made again after the order date is over. If there are left overs they will only be available at shows, cons and so on.
And what will be better to start my first digital print with but "Tatsu". This drawing is my very first dragon art I am very happy with and it gives me strength. If you are interested in it you can get it here at the following link. It will be $30 with shipping included. So dodn't wait till the end date. Click on the link and you will get all the details and info.

Thank you everyone for the support and love. Take care and hope everyone is enjoying their life.

For Print:
http://www.liljapanart.com/tatsuprint.html

What Really Hurts.....

That she's already moved on with happiness while i sit here in the dark.....Isn't that awesome......